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next year is gonna suck.

2006-06-23T01:49:38Z

¨the more i think about it, the more i want to go to Bel Air.
everything at Riverside just seems to be falling appart. i mean, 3 lunch periods, advisory for everyone¨
wise words from Deanna

it does seem as if riverside is going to pot.
I was looking forward to next year.
Now im just hoping i get lunch with my friends
&ughh i hope next year bring change.
for the better hopefully.

Ahhhh
well ive been goign trough al ot of shit rightnow.
And hopefully itll work out.
I have a feeling a it will.
I just want to go back to school already,
and hopefully the lunch periods will be like deanna said,
1st period.freshmen.
2nd period. sophomores AND juniors [<--- that would be love ♥]
3rd period.seniors

ugh, i decided i wanted to stay at riverside because of fashion merchandising.

that was the only class i was looking forward to.
I changed my pathway back to socratic.
And yup.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh
right now ima beg my mom to buy me starbucks.

.........................
........................

well about my problem.
its working out.
kindofish.
im making my mom feel all guilty and stuff.
HAHA.
well. i guess thats it.
:/

darkpixxie @ 2006-06-16T16:01:00

2006-06-16T21:58:42Z

ugh.
so no fashion merchandsing class next year.
>:O!!

im mad really,
and also for the lunch schedules and
today the principals suppoesed to have a meeting.....
i think?!?

ugh.
part of me wants to go to bel air
yup yup.

!!!

2006-06-13T02:01:28Z

new,pretty,springy layout :D

the mall

2006-06-13T01:40:56Z

everyone has the same fucking haircut.
same fucking tight pants.
same clothes & makeup.
LAME.
i bought shoes (which are fucking awesome by the way)
2 shirts & 2 pairs of pants.
my mom says i need more pants.
and less shirts.
grrrrrrr

ugh

2006-06-05T16:32:57Z

bored outta my mind!

life

2006-05-31T19:47:13Z

i was lying down on my couch,
looking up at all the awards
i have
of
when i acctually tried to do things,
when my mom didnt yell at me every 5 minutes
when she didnt make me cry,
or when i didnt make her cry.

when i knew exactly who to trust,
and what to do,
when i was shy and nice and polite
and who my friends were.

its berely one, and i already cried my eyes out

i know exactly what made me like this,
adn its partly my fault
for being so inflexible to new things.
now i regret everyhting i did to my mom
adn how much i made her cry
iregret telling her how much i hated her
for waht she did
and for what she didnt do.

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its a year already
i ~~love~~ like him,
i always will, even if he did hurt me.
im cool now :]

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i had the most horrible ~~dream~~ nightmare;
that irener died,
and i woke up crying

and now that shes leaving i learned to appreciate all my friends

because theyre what i love most in the world.

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also i realized our pointless addiction to the internet,
how weve forgotten about the simple things
what makes us log on to myspace??
how everybodys pictures are all the same,
everybodys profiles are all the same,
same haircut
same taste in music

what makes us learn html just to have the best layout??

we could be out there doing something productive,
instead we're in front of the computer
wehen theres so much out there,

theres more to life thatn the internet,
theres people to meet,
places to see
things to do

and most of them dont revolve around myspace

darkpixxie @ 2006-05-30T00:33:00

2006-05-30T06:29:41Z

bahaha
effing shay shay called randy over,
and she kept whistiling at him
it was embarrasing like omg!

but yeah,
twas fun

haha

and i was right,
that guy was mikey,

cuz he asked some guy for a light

and im remembered mikey smokes

so was like "hell yeah"

oh, and some guy that looked like oscar
BAHAHAHA

jkdfkjsaf

2006-05-30T00:51:33Z

blah blah

im boreeeeeeeeeeeeeed
nothing to do,
just wait for irene and shay shay

blha blahsda
das
dasd
a's;d
'asl
dasldlas'dls'
das
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and he was like "dksuafsdufoiusdoafi"

so i was like yeah right

and blah blah blahness

IM ANGERED!! >:[

2006-05-23T02:01:19Z

TODAY WAS LIKE UGHH!!!

IT WAS FRUSTRATING,

LUNCH SUCKED

IM SUPER MAD AT SHAY SHAY

GRRRRRRR....!

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SAKJDFHJKHDSKJFHKDSJ
UDSYAUFOIWEYAF

I FUCKING PISSED

>:<

ADN LKE IDK IF WE HAVE TO PRESENT TOMMORROW
AND WE DONT HAVE ANYTHING READY

FUCKING SHIT!

MY WORLD IS NO LONGER IN ORBIT

darkpixxie @ 2006-05-21T20:54:00

2006-05-22T02:51:11Z

luis <33

oof

2006-05-17T05:00:14Z

REMEMBER??
"the good stuff"
"fuck the free world!!"
"put it in the box"
"its common sense,guys!"
"Is that a little pony?"
"excuse me,sir?"
"DAMN!!"
"euq??"
"it goes to the left"
"it goes to the right"
"Zoltan"

*drumroll*

SSSP!!! =]

and our stupid nicknames
"geenny"
"banana"
"atchly"
"tippany"
"tina"
"the clones"
"shenaynay"
and how we had
different nicknames for people

remember the
"macking table"??

remeber playing bullshit at the end of the year?

how we said we were gonna be best friends forever,no matter what??

and look at us now
not even a "hi" in the hallway

remember art class??
art club??
making aracely cry in 9th period?
laughing at her?
[mean,but we had fun]
singing in french?
french class with a teacher that acted like she was on drugs?

when i was obssesed with tokyo mew mew?

when we had stupid slam books

and notebooks were we wrote to each other?

when we promised we wouldnt let high school tear us apart

but it did.

when i didnt always have a reason to cry

when we talked shit about people

and laughed at them

how much we cried the last day of school?

how depressed we were?

when i listened to good riddance over and over again?

all the hugs we gave each other?

remember all those pizza parties in art?

how much fun we had??

drawing retarded things

and trying to get inspired

remember i wore hot pink eyeshadow and black eyeliner?

and oscar

remember him?

hes sooo two years ago....literally

:]

how sami held my hand

today in second period watching krhs

because i know we both felt the same

and how much weve changed

since last year and the beggining of the year

when we used to follow robert warren

and when we asked for his name

and for a picture of him

and how yesterday

i was like damn

thats gonna be us in 3 years

and looking trough old live journals

saying how i was so scared of growing up

and of change

is dreppesing

because im still scared and i havent gotten over any of my fears

and the summer was amazing

blah!

and i creid so much when his dad died

and thats the week me and irene went to the skate park

an we cried

in the little kids games

and those are all just memories

darkpixxie @ 2006-05-11T17:32:00

2006-05-11T23:36:17Z

four jobs i've had
* student
*hmmmm
*hmmmm
*hmmmm

four movies I can watch over and over again
*billie elliot
*cyrano de bercegac
*LA MALA EDUCACION <33
*the notebook :D

four tv shows i watch (Well, when I actually watch TV...) - same
* the simpsons
* family guy
* american dad
* that 70s show

four places i've been on vacation
* california
* creel
*lol california
* uhhhhh

four dishes I never get sick of
* SUSHI
* pizza
* spanish food
* chinese

four websites I visit daily
* you tube
* myspace
* livejournal
* habbo hotel

four places I'd rather be right now
* spain!!
* the mall
* japan
* the skate park

four people I tag
* irene
* uhhhh
* uhhhhh
* uhhhh

i wish a bus would hit me

2006-05-03T13:38:04Z

Hmm...i dont know if tit my friends not liking luis or the "end of thr year depression" i always get.
But im sad.
I dont get to spend enough time with luis
because irene gets mad
and because i promised
and i didnt mind
until today.
idk y
today i just felt really depressed
and thats partly why i didnt want to go
back to school today
I <3 irene and luis
but they hate each ohter
:[[
and idk if its because of that,
but i just cried my eyes out
Now,
I wish that bus would run me over.
the end
:'[

my

2006-04-29T22:52:41Z

stomach just made a noise like a little kid
and it scared me

me and my sister

2006-04-28T00:31:17Z

:/

2006-04-28T00:22:53Z

ok!!!
hmmm
today in 5 th period i read the book im supposed to reat tommorrow,
and i did pretty well.....i think!!
well whatev
idk
jessica seemed weird at lunch
andin 7th period she told me
"i keep forgetting im in high school,i keep thinking im still in elemtary,or in middle school, it was much easier back then"
and she said how school was different now
and that she was probably gonna move to montwood
next year
:[
and yeah,
she wasnt really feeling well
so we sat down on the floor
and after that i felt really sad,
cuz it was much easier back then
gahhhhhh
and when i said i was gonna be crying my eyes out
i did
yesterday i was reading fruits basket
and yeah
them mom didnt want momiji cuz he a member of the sohma family
and she said

"the only regret i have in this life, is that that creature came out of my body"

and he was ok with her forgetting that she had him
:[
and i started crying right about then
siiiigggggghhhhhhh
ok i was gonna write about somethiig else
hmmmm
oh yeah, guillermo
im avoiding him now
idk
its not the same talking to him anymore
i guess i outgrew him
last time he was on msn,
but i dont lke talking to christopher so i put my thing to offline,
and i went online
and he was there
but i didnt feel like talking to him at all
blhaaah
and its almost gonna be a year since i met him
like next motn i think??
idk
i remember it ws the summer
haha
and it kicked ass
:]
ok so i went today so i could change my pathway
and blah blah
i forgot to ask for summer school
though
doh!
gaaaaah

its something impredictable

2006-04-25T23:25:12Z

:'[
im gonna get sad again!!!
just wait,in a few more weeks im gonna be crying my eyes out
i will, just wait

harhjarrrafdaslhfjkldhsfkj

2006-04-24T23:49:01Z

ok so computer is being gheeeeeeeeey
gheeeeeeeeyyyy
gheeyyy
yup

blah
anyways......
well the most exciting thing that happened today was the book aaron read,
o yeah!!
and 4th period!!
lmao!!1
well as always pablo and seth fought
hahahaha
but like ~~seth~~ pablo choked seth and it was hilarous
lol

LMAO!!!!!

and what else??
nothing else i guess
ooh no!
i ate yummy pizza and tomato juice!!
har har and then some strawberries and ice cream

:]

kae,thats it for today

some one kill meeee

2006-04-22T05:05:24Z

aaaaahHH!!
i forgot tommorrow was saturday!!
im going to fucking dieeeeeeeee!!
i forgot
dammitttt
fuckkkkk gaaaaaah
ok damn
i wanna be sick now
damn

que nunca puedo descansar?!?!?!

luis

2006-04-22T04:57:22Z

makes me smile <333333

do you want to?

2006-04-21T01:40:53Z

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SiCM7UfEkZs

argh

2006-04-20T02:26:59Z

my stomach hurts a lot
:[
and i wanted to throw up
but nohting will come oout
argh
and my mom made chop suey
and it smells gross
lkajdfjldks
argh!!
great!!
im sick for taks
:[

</3

2006-04-18T03:40:24Z

Nayef has a girlfriendd
:'[
and its not jessica,
its some girl eraina
what kind of a name is that?!?!
[lol]
</////333 =( *sigh*

<33

2006-04-18T01:04:03Z

<33
myspace is being ghey
:'[
reelack!!!!
so yeah.....
new myspace, [backup]
in case i get my ass deleted or hacked,
myspace.com/pikachu5
add it nowwwwwwwwwww
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ceasar<33
makes me smile
:]
<33

AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!

2006-04-14T04:34:25Z

i wne to el skate park today
and guess who was there??
CEASAR
aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh
hes beautifullll!!!
<33